Post by lady lynne on Dec 13, 2007 15:54:29 GMT -5
This was written by Angelkitty on the November 30th, 2007
=This is a Christmas Story.. But with a twist.. It is a real life memory of Mine.. It is of Mine and My late husbands very first Christmas together.. After so much heartache and dispare I had forgotten this most wonderous and beautful memory..
I forgot it til one day A very special Man played a song on His and my sissy's online radio station.. Soon as I listened to it.. I had flood gates burst wide open and memory after memory of that special Time in my life came flooding back to me.. It cause me to burst into tears..
But they were not tears of sadness.. They were tears of thanks and of joy.. For I have regained a beautiful piece of mine and Bob's life together.. Bob and I would have been married for 22 years had He not passed away in December of 2001.. But God felt His suffering from illnesses in real life was enough and decided to put an end to my true loves pain and hurt..
This is my special memory.. I hope all enjoy as greatly as I did in regaining it back once again..=
=The day was a cold and crisp one.. =
=It was December 24th, 1980 =
=The wind blew the snow drifts across the parking lots with a force that would knock any little child to there knees.. I looked about our lil appartment and gave a slight sigh of sadness.. For I missed my mom and the holidays with her I had always enjoyed as a little girl growing up.. Mom use to say I got my creativity from her and to this very day I believe she spoke true..
Bob had just came in from doing some repairs to the outside windows where the wind always seemed to find its way in and make the little appartment cold and very chilly.. He sat down in his chair and as he looked over to me he asked softly with the concern he always had for me when I got sad.. Hearing his voice I looked at him and waited for him to speak.. And soon I heard the man I love ask.. "" Love.. You okay? What is bothering you?""
I looked at him and tryed hard to hide the sudden sadness that had crept up on me.. But He knew me all to well.. And so I walked towards him and slipped onto his lap and whispered softly answering him.. I could never hide my feelings or anything from him.. He always knew even without me speaking really.."" I miss mom and the way things would be at Thanksgiving and Christmas time at home love.. But mostly I miss the Christmas's.. I am sorry and I am sooooo greatful to be your love and be with you love.. Never doubt that.. I just wish some that some things could be brought back you know.. And some of those are around the holidays..""
He took me in his arms and suddenly he was whispering and rocking me softly and then he said and I heard the tears in his voice.. ""Love I am sorry you can not be at home with mom and all at this time of year.. It saddens me to see you hurt for the looses that have happened and that I am not able to undo them for you as much as I sooo wish to change them.. But Love I am here and I will do my best to be as strong for you as am able..""
He then stopped speaking and I looked into his eyes and it seemed as if a halo of silver enfolded itself round him.. And deep in my heart I knew he spoke true.. we talked and talked for a long time then he suddenly picked me up and set me in his chair.. And he said.. ""Love I am gonna run to the store.. I will be back soon.. When I come back.. We both will figure out something to do with that little tree..""
I listened and seen the sadness in his eyes again from when he had returned home from his truck driving trip and had to settle for a Charlie Brown Christmas tree instead of the one he had first picked.. I did not speak of it but instead agreed and in my mind the wheels began to trun..
I knew when he went to the store he would be gone for a long time.. It would be least two hours or more before he returned.. So I nodded and got up and got his coat and scarf and mits for him and helped him to dress as I always was hard on him for not dressing right to me for winter weather..=
=This is what took place while he was away.. And again I hope all enjoy... =
=As I closed the appartment door I suddenly remembered a box or many different bows and ribbons I had insisted on keeping though Bob had wanted to trash them.. I would not let him.. I laugh now for at the time I had no clue or reason as to why I saved them.. But that sweet night I knew then why I had..
I went into the long storage closet and dug them out from way in the back and brought them out into the livingroom area.. As I set them down I remembered how a few times Bob had said I was a pack rat at times and saved needless things..
I laughed sitting there on the floor next to our Charlie Brown Christmas tree and inspected each ribbon and each bow.. There were silver and white and a few small small gold bows and silver and gold ribbons in the box..
I took each out and carefully placed each on the floor by me.. And as I got to the bottom of the box.. I found a huge star shaped gold and white and silver bow.. It was soo beautiful as the lights reflecked off it.. It seemed to glow to me.. So I stood and placed it on the very top of the tree.. It became our tree top..
Next I looked through the different sized ribbons and other bows and I placed a few bows on the tree whole.. Others I carefully pulled apart and strung them on the tree as garlands.. Then I went in search of some candles for the very bottom two rows of branches.. And also for some small empty tuna cans to place the candles in.. I made sure all food and stuff was out and washed and dryed the cans.. And removed the paper and took a red and green permanant marker and colored the cans red and green..
I then lighted the candles and one at a time melted just enough wax in the cans to hold the candles upright in it.. Soon I had 15 canned candles that I then tied to the heavier bottom branches.. I then finished placing the rest of the bows and ribbons and then turned..
Looking out a window then and I seen Bob pull up so I then turned all appartment lights off and stood by the tree which by the time I had finished no longer looked like a Charlie Brown Christmas Tree no more.. But looked like a big bushy and fluffy one..
Bob walked into the appartment after unlocking the door and was about to ask why the lights were all off.. But the words froze in his mouth as he stood there looking at me then the tree and then back to me.. I watched as the most strongest man in my eyes suddenly broke down and came to me with his eyes over flowing with tears..
At first I had thought he was mad cause I had went a head and did the tree while he was gone.. But that fear soon faded as I heard his next words to me as he whispered them..
""Ohhhhh Love.. You never seem to stop surprising me with how much love flows from you.. And tonight you have once again done it.."" He stopped for a moment then we stood infront of the glowing tree in our darkened appartment and he whispered some more.. "" Merry Merry Christmas my love.. And I am soo lucky to spend it with such a wondeful tree and the most beautiful woman in the world and in my life..=
=From Me and from My Bob.. I wish Y/you A/all a very Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays.. =
=This is a Christmas Story.. But with a twist.. It is a real life memory of Mine.. It is of Mine and My late husbands very first Christmas together.. After so much heartache and dispare I had forgotten this most wonderous and beautful memory..
I forgot it til one day A very special Man played a song on His and my sissy's online radio station.. Soon as I listened to it.. I had flood gates burst wide open and memory after memory of that special Time in my life came flooding back to me.. It cause me to burst into tears..
But they were not tears of sadness.. They were tears of thanks and of joy.. For I have regained a beautiful piece of mine and Bob's life together.. Bob and I would have been married for 22 years had He not passed away in December of 2001.. But God felt His suffering from illnesses in real life was enough and decided to put an end to my true loves pain and hurt..
This is my special memory.. I hope all enjoy as greatly as I did in regaining it back once again..=
=The day was a cold and crisp one.. =
=It was December 24th, 1980 =
=The wind blew the snow drifts across the parking lots with a force that would knock any little child to there knees.. I looked about our lil appartment and gave a slight sigh of sadness.. For I missed my mom and the holidays with her I had always enjoyed as a little girl growing up.. Mom use to say I got my creativity from her and to this very day I believe she spoke true..
Bob had just came in from doing some repairs to the outside windows where the wind always seemed to find its way in and make the little appartment cold and very chilly.. He sat down in his chair and as he looked over to me he asked softly with the concern he always had for me when I got sad.. Hearing his voice I looked at him and waited for him to speak.. And soon I heard the man I love ask.. "" Love.. You okay? What is bothering you?""
I looked at him and tryed hard to hide the sudden sadness that had crept up on me.. But He knew me all to well.. And so I walked towards him and slipped onto his lap and whispered softly answering him.. I could never hide my feelings or anything from him.. He always knew even without me speaking really.."" I miss mom and the way things would be at Thanksgiving and Christmas time at home love.. But mostly I miss the Christmas's.. I am sorry and I am sooooo greatful to be your love and be with you love.. Never doubt that.. I just wish some that some things could be brought back you know.. And some of those are around the holidays..""
He took me in his arms and suddenly he was whispering and rocking me softly and then he said and I heard the tears in his voice.. ""Love I am sorry you can not be at home with mom and all at this time of year.. It saddens me to see you hurt for the looses that have happened and that I am not able to undo them for you as much as I sooo wish to change them.. But Love I am here and I will do my best to be as strong for you as am able..""
He then stopped speaking and I looked into his eyes and it seemed as if a halo of silver enfolded itself round him.. And deep in my heart I knew he spoke true.. we talked and talked for a long time then he suddenly picked me up and set me in his chair.. And he said.. ""Love I am gonna run to the store.. I will be back soon.. When I come back.. We both will figure out something to do with that little tree..""
I listened and seen the sadness in his eyes again from when he had returned home from his truck driving trip and had to settle for a Charlie Brown Christmas tree instead of the one he had first picked.. I did not speak of it but instead agreed and in my mind the wheels began to trun..
I knew when he went to the store he would be gone for a long time.. It would be least two hours or more before he returned.. So I nodded and got up and got his coat and scarf and mits for him and helped him to dress as I always was hard on him for not dressing right to me for winter weather..=
=This is what took place while he was away.. And again I hope all enjoy... =
=As I closed the appartment door I suddenly remembered a box or many different bows and ribbons I had insisted on keeping though Bob had wanted to trash them.. I would not let him.. I laugh now for at the time I had no clue or reason as to why I saved them.. But that sweet night I knew then why I had..
I went into the long storage closet and dug them out from way in the back and brought them out into the livingroom area.. As I set them down I remembered how a few times Bob had said I was a pack rat at times and saved needless things..
I laughed sitting there on the floor next to our Charlie Brown Christmas tree and inspected each ribbon and each bow.. There were silver and white and a few small small gold bows and silver and gold ribbons in the box..
I took each out and carefully placed each on the floor by me.. And as I got to the bottom of the box.. I found a huge star shaped gold and white and silver bow.. It was soo beautiful as the lights reflecked off it.. It seemed to glow to me.. So I stood and placed it on the very top of the tree.. It became our tree top..
Next I looked through the different sized ribbons and other bows and I placed a few bows on the tree whole.. Others I carefully pulled apart and strung them on the tree as garlands.. Then I went in search of some candles for the very bottom two rows of branches.. And also for some small empty tuna cans to place the candles in.. I made sure all food and stuff was out and washed and dryed the cans.. And removed the paper and took a red and green permanant marker and colored the cans red and green..
I then lighted the candles and one at a time melted just enough wax in the cans to hold the candles upright in it.. Soon I had 15 canned candles that I then tied to the heavier bottom branches.. I then finished placing the rest of the bows and ribbons and then turned..
Looking out a window then and I seen Bob pull up so I then turned all appartment lights off and stood by the tree which by the time I had finished no longer looked like a Charlie Brown Christmas Tree no more.. But looked like a big bushy and fluffy one..
Bob walked into the appartment after unlocking the door and was about to ask why the lights were all off.. But the words froze in his mouth as he stood there looking at me then the tree and then back to me.. I watched as the most strongest man in my eyes suddenly broke down and came to me with his eyes over flowing with tears..
At first I had thought he was mad cause I had went a head and did the tree while he was gone.. But that fear soon faded as I heard his next words to me as he whispered them..
""Ohhhhh Love.. You never seem to stop surprising me with how much love flows from you.. And tonight you have once again done it.."" He stopped for a moment then we stood infront of the glowing tree in our darkened appartment and he whispered some more.. "" Merry Merry Christmas my love.. And I am soo lucky to spend it with such a wondeful tree and the most beautiful woman in the world and in my life..=
=From Me and from My Bob.. I wish Y/you A/all a very Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays.. =
